I need to lose weight so badly
I went and bought new clothes today and I felt so disgusting and huge
Everytime I go shopping for clothes I end up crying in the changing room tghgfdtyhg i’m so pathetic
I was thinking and it’s actually disgusting how much I eat food
I don’t need to eat that much, I hate having to depend on things. I don’t need it.
So starting tommorow I’ll drink nothing but water and eat nothing but tablets and chew gum. I don’t even care. I will be pretty for this summer and I’m not going to give up until I’m at least a size 10.
I need to be in control, I hate how I depend on food so much it’s disgusting.
This whole thing is probably going to sound so tired and cliche but:
I cut for over three years until I went to one of my teachers (I literally had no one else to go to), and it was the best thing I've ever done for myself. I had chronic depression to the highest degree and I don't know how much longer I would have lasted. I started some therapy and anti-depressants and it's incredible how much better I've felt. In fact, the only time I do get reminded of the cutting is when I see or feel the scars (I have many, but there is one six-centimetre long scar that still gives me chills).
My point is: please, Brie, please make sure that you get this taken care of. I promise you that it will get so so much better if you do.
--K
P.S. You don't have to post this; just so long as you read it.
Anonymous
Wow, thankyou. I know talking to someone will be best for me but I’m still scared. But thankyou so much, and I’m glad you’re better <3
hi, ive had to do this anon cause i cut and i have people following me that dont know about it. one of my friends told someone at school who was supposed to be a professional in dealing with student who self injure and who are depressed and stuff. i spoke to her once and she didnt pay any attention to me since. i dont know how this is relivent but. this was a waste of my time typing this cause it actually has nothing to do with anything but. i self harm and i tried to get help and i couldnt. so go to your gp and try as hard as you can to get people to help you cause ill probably regret not being able to talk to anyone.
Anonymous
That’s horrible, that’s why I don’t want to see anyone at school or anything. If they don’t take notice of them I’ll just keep trying.
Thankyou <3
Brie, If you're feeling suicidal then the pills that you should be on for your bi-polar clearly aren't working. You shouldn't be feeling like this, it's not right and you don't deserve to feel like this. Go to the doctors and get them to change meds/dosage/whatever. You shouldn't be feeling like this! It upsets me seeing people so down and I know I can't comprehend what you're feeling but surely the doctors should be able to sort it? overall, it's your decision to go, but I think you should and get the help you need! Please feel better sweetness! It's not nice to see such a lovely girl feeling so down ;~;
Yeah :|
Thankyou so much, I love you! <3
hi :) so I had problems with s.i/suicidal thoughts and was seeing therapists/school counselors. the counselors helped more than the therapists did, however neither made me feel like i was exaggerating my problems or anything so I'd really suggest talking to someone.
I’d feel really uncomfortable talking to someone in school about it haha but that’s just me. But tah, I’m going to try the doctors today so :)
I don't know for definite, but talking to your GP should help. If they know about your bipolar then they should be taking you seriously. <3
Yeah I’m gonna ring a local gp later today, cos I don’t know who mine is because we only recently moved in so~
I’m going to answer the questions I have in my ask box tommorow, so don’t think I’m ignoring you.
I’m going to call a doctor in the morning and see what goes from there
Thankyou, all of you so much
bestialityandnecrophilia:
I’d really appreciate any help
Basically as you can probably tell I’ve been having problems with si and I’ve been feeling suicidal and it’s getting too much for me to handle
I’ve emailed a youth trust counsellor but haven’t got a reply and I don’t know if they’ll be much help anyway
Do you…
I tried to kill myself less than a year ago, so I can help. Um, I suggest you get help. A doctor. Make sure you take someone with you if you’re a bit nervous. Just tell them everything. No matter how silly/irrelevant you think it is. The small things make big impacts. Seriously.
Ok thankyou. Did you get admitted into hospital or?
I need to ask you guys something
I’d really appreciate any help
Basically as you can probably tell I’ve been having problems with si and I’ve been feeling suicidal and it’s getting too much for me to handle
I’ve emailed a youth trust counsellor but haven’t got a reply and I don’t know if they’ll be much help anyway
Do you think I should contact a doctor, or a gp or something like that? Would they actually be able to help or would they say I’m doing it for attention and ignore me?
Has anyone else had problem with this sort of stuff, because I really don’t know what to do and I don’t know how much longer I can go on feeling like this
i know everyone is saying they are here for you and stuff, and looking on your personal blog i want to cry. some of it i feel myself but other parts i can't even imagine.
if you evereverever need me then you can always text me: 07817068784. if you want to cry down the phone at 4am just phone me up and i'll listen ok.
it might sound creepy cause we don't talk as much as you talk to other people, but i go through some of the same stuff as you, obviously not the same, but you get what i mean.
i actually am here, for anyone, i don't ever want anyone to feel like they want to die, i've felt it myself and knowing there are other people who feel the same is horrible. so i'm always here and i truly mean that <3
Thankyou so much it means a lot <3
I’m always here for you too
Really thankyou <33
